Making Contact

I felt that I had 'turned a corner' so to speak when i first wet my nappy! Other ABDL's that I had chatted with on forums had said it would.. But I never really realized how much wetting my nappy would make me regress!

It really is very difficult indeed to feel like an adult when you are sucking on a dummy wearing baby clothes clothes with a wet nappy! it's that simple!

Picture taken by 'Nanny'

The TV Nanny I had been emailing was now in a position to invite me over to play my infantile role and I had bought the dolls and a few other things in preparation. I didn't even like dolls and thought that they were silly, especially for a grown man to own.

We set a date and with a mixture of excitement, apprehension, embarrassment and curiosity I drove to "Nanny's" house. At first I was dressed like a little girl for a while before I was told that I was 'acting like a baby... so should be treated like one'. I was bathed, dried and then put into a disposable nappy with a cute pink baby dress and ankle socks. I was then given a bottle of baby milk to drink.

I was then fed a meal of baby food and given another bottle of milk. Nanny then placed me down on the living room rug where I lay sucking on my dummy feeling very exposed and very unsure of myself. I was given another bottle to drink and it wasn't too long before i needed to pee. I wasn't sure if Nanny wanted me to wet myself so I told her I needed to go wee wee's. I was told to use my nappy as that was what it was there for!

It took me about 20mins before I could actually force myself to wet my nappy. after I wet my nappy a wave of 'manhood' came over me and I started to ask myself what the hell I was doing!?! There I was laying on my back in a strange mans house who liked to dress as a woman... while I myself lay there dressed like a baby girl, sucking a dummy with a wet nappy!

The whole experience was very weird and gave me conflicting emotions. However, not long after wetting my nappy, Nanny ended the role-play session and sent me home. It ended quite abruptly and I was confused as to what had happened to change things the way they did.

I learnt afterwards that 'Nanny' was getting quite aroused by my baby play and wanted to do naughty things with me that went against everything that we had previously agreed. I'm kind of glad I had the experience as it did start to clarify a few things in my mind as well.

I really did want to share this aspect of myself with someone and it had to be the 'right' person who kind of understood my needs and desires. I kept looking on various networking sites and forums but wasn't having any luck in finding a female carer. Then all that started to change very quickly when I finally started to open up to my kinky friends about my ABDL desires.